Thursday, July 9, 2009: She died 22 years ago tomrrow. I think she didn’t suffer. I hope she didn’t suffer when she went to sleep forever. My Aunt Esther was my friend–more than my friend. She was my protector and my champion and she didn’t deserve to have the housing problem that she had, not in her later years, not ever.
My Aunt–22 Years
July 9, 2009 by beccar15 Years Without My Mother
July 9, 2009 by beccar
Thursday, July 9, 2009: I lost my mother on July 10, 1994. It is incredible that almost 15 years have gone by–15 hard years. My mother was a good woman, a woman who never forgot her own mother, my grandmother Ana. She lived 54 years without her and I believe that they are together up there in Heaven. My mother is probably smiling, the way she smiled that afternoon in Burbank when we went to the ice cream parlor to have an ice cream sundae and the chocolate syrup ran down her chin. That is my favorite memory of her. She was happy that day. She was not in any kind of pain, not emotional or physical or anything. She just was herself, the self she wanted to be.
Stress
July 3, 2009 by beccarFriday, July 3, 2009: There seems to be another source of stress in my life. My cat Lauchita helps me when we cuddle. She is the companion that is with me all the time, but I need a human person as well. I\The source of stress is always money, money for this and that. There is not enough and I need it very badly. More so than ever.
Padre Cutie
June 29, 2009 by beccarI know only too well what the former Reverend Bob, now married, is talking about. And about Padre Cutie. The priest I fell in love with in Argentina was very good looking. I am sorry to say that we gave each other up. Ms. Paliekiera interviewed me in March about my novel Different Flags and the real life story behind it. Eugenia Renskoff
Mark Sanford
June 27, 2009 by beccarSaturday, June 27, 2009: What is the big deal about Mark Sanford? Personally, I think that if a man travels thousands of miles to see a woman, it’s not just sex. And if his wife knew all about it, why didn’t she do something?
Unpopular Opinion
June 25, 2009 by beccarThursday, June 25, 2009: I know is not politically correct. Here it goes: Though I do not approve of adultery, I admire South Carolina’s Governor. He travelled to another country, risked his political career, marriage and family for a woman. Had it been just sex, he could have hired someone, like others before him. Were I his wife, I would be start divorce proceedings, but I am not. Yes, maybe he should have admitted it from the beginning, but what politician would? Eugenia Renskoff
A Year Ago Today
June 20, 2009 by beccarSaturday, June 20, 2009: A year ago today, Lauchita and I left Norfolk to go to Jersey City. It was a Friday morning at around 8, and we were driven to Jersey City by a very nice man. That weekend in Jersey was the worst my cat and I have ever spent! The last time I saw Norfolk, the grass on the neighbors’s lawns was green and beautiful.
Running Around 5th Avenue
June 20, 2009 by beccarSaturday, June 20, 2009: Yesterday afternoon I ran around 5th Avenue, looking for a man who wasn’t there. I went to his place of business to discover that he had left. Then I emailed him from the NY Public Library. Then, I discovered where he really was supposed to be, and surprise! He wasn’t there either. I felt like a fool and like I had been stood up over and over again.Yesterday afternoon was one of the more stressful times of the year and a half that I’ve spent back here in New York. Don’t need that again.
Nadia’s Death
June 10, 2009 by beccarNadia died early in the morning of Thursday, June 10, 1999. It must have been at around 2 A.M. That’s when she must have noticed that the candle on her night table had caught on something, probably a piece of paper. She must have rushed to the kitchen and got some pots and pans to make noise. But nobody came to her aid until somebody on her floor (the 10th) noticed that there was smoke coming from under the door. The fire dept. found her with her hand clutching the house keys. Otranto and Niebla, her 2 older dogs died with her. The Rolex watch she was wearing (a souvenir of her prosperous days) was stolen by somebody. May She rest in Peace!
Nadia, Almost 10 Years
June 9, 2009 by beccarTuesday, June 9, 2009: Today is the 10th anniversary of the last full day of Nadia’s life. She had come to my apt. as she did almost every morning and was standing on one of my chairs trying to fix the white drapes in the window looking out at Avenida Maipu. She was happy (or content) when she came to my place. Nadia, who had her own apt. messy and dirty, in part because of her Alzheimer’s, often did the dishes when we were done with tea in my living room. I still cannot believe that so much time has gone by since I lost her, Otranto and Niebla, her two older dogs.
