Everything To Say

Friday, May 29, 2009: Everything I want to say seems an impossible task. There is so much locked up inside me and not enough time, not to mention a limitless use computer, to do it with. I still miss Chiquito, my aristocratic dog, very much. And I feel yet again that a war of nerves situation has descended upon me yet again.

I wish my dog Chiquito were still alive and that when I return to Argentina, our long walks would still be possible. But that will not be. Walking by myself where we used to walk is something that I do not look forward to.

Home Ache

Wednesday, May 28, 2009: It is a deep ache, a feeling that will not go away, no matter how much I press it down and deny it. A home, a home, the kind I have always known. The kind of home that now seems to have belonged to another me, long, long ago.

Mortgage Fraud Hope

Friday, May 15, 2009: I still haven’t lost hope that the so -called professionals who got me into my GA mortgage fraud mess will be punished. I know it’s a long shot, but I I am hoping (maybe against hope) that it will actually come to pass and that justice will be done. I am just one person and maybe I don’t matter because I am not famous or rich or anything, but my experience is very important to me. it has cost me many things, including the people i thought were members of my family, among other things.

My Mother Remembered

Saturday, May 9, 2009: Tomorrow is Mother’s Day and my mother has been gone for almost 15 years. I would like to remember her not struggling or carrying bags that were too heavy for her but as she was in Southern California the time that we went to visit my brother. There was an old fashioned ice cream shoppe near his apt. and she and I went to get a hot fudge sundae. I will never forget the happy look on her face as the chocolate syrup ran down her chin. Her cheeks were almost red. My mother looked happy. She was an unencumbered little girl again.

I know my mother is in Heaven with my grandmother Ana. She never got over her death. Now they are happy together at last.

The Homeless And Rent

Saturday, May 8, 2009: I feel that the homeless in shelters  should be helped to get out of being homeless and not be charged rent if they are working and making minimum wage. it is wrong to take the very little money that they have available. Why not have them save as much of their salaries as they can so they can rent an apt. and be self sufficient again? Or train them to get really well paying jobs?

Padre Alberto Again

Yes, he did break an oath, but so does a married man when he has an affair. That is wrong too and he could argue (as it is often done) that his wife is getting old or she doesn’t understand the poor man.I feel that priests should be allowed (though allowed may not be the right word because it makes them sound like little kids) to marry, have a girlfriend, if they want. If they don’t want, that’s fine, too so long as they have a choice. Their personal lives should be separate from the ministry and nobody is perfect. I have known several priests (including the one I loved years ago) and I could lecture on this at the Vatican. They are men and men will be tempted by a pretty woman. Not all of them, but enough to make this Celibacy Rule ridiculous. Eugenia Renskoff haedo1881@yahoo.com, http://beccar.blogharbor.com

Married Priests

Hello,  I believe that the most important thing a woman who has fallen in love with a priest asks is: Will he marry me? An affair is just not good enough. I know I ask myself these and other questions when I fell in love with my priest.

Hiding in Fred and Ginger

Monday, April 20, 2009: I have started rewatching the Fred Astaire/Ginger Rogers films from the 1930s. My favorites are The Gay Divorcee, Top Hat and Shall We Dance. The dancing is, of course, always outstanding, but I am also drawn to the onscreen relationship between Ginger and Fred. It was free and easy, not complicated at all. The sets are out of this world because of their Art Deco elegance. At this so problematic part of my life, the Fred Astaire/Ginger Rogers movies help me cope with what may lie ahead for me. The films help me escape (much like it must have helped people during the Depression) into a world where money is not a great big issue and being alone just doesn’t exist.

April 10, 2009 NY Times Editorial

Saturday, April 18, 2009: A recent editorial in the NY Times pretty much describes what happened to me in GA . There probably was a yield-spread mortgage and when I tried to refinance, I was told i couldn’t, that I had to wait 2 years because of the prepayment penalty. The loan officer probably got a very high fee and there were lots of condos on sale at that time. There was a lot of inventory that just had to be disposed of.

Timothy Dolan

Friday, April 17, 2009: Timothy Dolan was installed as archibishop of NYC. He does not want optional Celibacy. Different guy, same story.