It gets so complicated! It gets to be so difficult. Just when I need a solution, it seems that the solution is way out of my reach. And I am worried about my falls. I can pretend and lie to myself for a while, but the falls—they tell the truth.
Archive for the ‘my health’ Category
Falls
April 13, 2009Exhaustion
March 14, 2009Saturday, March 14, 2009: My tiredness is so strong that I can hardly eat at night. I force myself to open my mouth and take a little bit of food. It wasn’t like this before last year. I had so much energy then! I felt strong and healthy and raring to go.
The events in my life during 2008 have been way too much. I have done my best, but they are stronger than I am, stronger than I was.
Edge
February 25, 2009Wednesday, February 25, 2009: I have been living on the edge far too long. My health needs some tender loving care, which it cannot have without real doctors. My home situation needs attention and real stability. I don’t know how much longer this can go on, but I have a feeling that it won’t be long. It’d better not be long like this. Nothing good can come out of it.
Work Exchange
February 23, 2009Monday, February 23, 2009: I will put an ad on craigslist asking for a doctor for my back. I really need to see someone because the pain is very sharp most of the time. Also, I need a dentist and a foot doctor. If the first ad gets favorable responses, I’ll do the other two. Without health insurance, what else can I do?
No Health Insurance
February 18, 2009Wednesday, February 18, 2009: I am in urgent need of medical help and I have no insurance. In my good days (before the GA condo mortgage fraud/foreclosure), I had Kaiser Permanente. Now I have nothing and I have been suffering from a terrible back past 4 weeks. Taking Tylenol does no good. Nothing really helps, only a doctor would but I cannot pay for one.
Sitting
February 17, 2009February 17, 2009: I cannot sit. I have to learn how to sit again because if I make the wrong move, the pain when I get up is very harsh.
My Health
February 10, 2009Tuesday, February 10, 2009: I never used to worry about my health, much less talk about it, but things have changed dramatically. Ever since the two attacks on my lower back late last year and about 3 weeks ago, all I do is think about my back. Will I lose mobility? Will I not be able to walk? Am I going to have to depend on others? I hope not, because others are si undependable, even if they mean well. What will happen to my darling Lauchita? She’s my little furry friend and we sleep together. This morning I had a hard time bending down to get her food bowl and change her water. Things have been going badly, very badly for me, since the damned day I went to Atlanta, GA in 2002. First it was my finances and now my health. As someone I know would say: This is too much! Just too much!
