Archive for May, 2009

Padre Alberto’s Friend

May 29, 2009

If she loves the priest, she doesn’t love the man. It is a package deal. She loves the man, a man who happens to be a priest. I am sure that is who Padre Alberto’s friend fell in love with. If he is joining the Episcopal Church, it must be because he wants both her and religion, in one way or another. Eugenia Renskoff


Everything To Say

May 29, 2009

Friday, May 29, 2009: Everything I want to say seems an impossible task. There is so much locked up inside me and not enough time, not to mention a limitless use computer, to do it with. I still miss Chiquito, my aristocratic dog, very much. And I feel yet again that a war of nerves situation has descended upon me yet again.

I wish my dog Chiquito were still alive and that when I return to Argentina, our long walks would still be possible. But that will not be. Walking by myself where we used to walk is something that I do not look forward to.

Home Ache

May 28, 2009

Wednesday, May 28, 2009: It is a deep ache, a feeling that will not go away, no matter how much I press it down and deny it. A home, a home, the kind I have always known. The kind of home that now seems to have belonged to another me, long, long ago.

Priestly Compassion?

May 27, 2009

Wednesday, May 27, 2009: To a woman who was, or is in love, with a Roman Catholic priest, rules and regulations are not the heart of the matter. She wants to know how her love will end. Will it end happily or will she have to cry and forget the guy? Compassion for human suffering is missing from the equation. When people put themselves in such a woman’s place, maybe things will start to change in the Church. Until then, rules and regulations are just talk, talk.

Feelings Towards a woman

May 26, 2009

Tuesday, May 27, 2009: If a priest is a man, he can have feelings towards a woman. The fact that he took a vow does not stop him from feeling. He is, after all, a human being. The important thing is: What will he do about his feelings? Will he act upon them or sweep them under the huge Roman Catholic Church Carpet?

Priests in Love

May 26, 2009

Tuesday, May 26, 2009: Many priests do nothing when they fall in love. Some lead back street lives with their women, while others pretend she does not exist.

Reminders of Rubio

May 19, 2009

There was a dog like Rubio on Madison and East 39th. He had a fluffy up in the air tail, just like Rubio’s. When I look at pictures I took of Rubio years ago (like 2000/2001) it seems that he’s about to step out of the picture and be with me again.

Mortgage Fraud Hope

May 15, 2009

Friday, May 15, 2009: I still haven’t lost hope that the so -called professionals who got me into my GA mortgage fraud mess will be punished. I know it’s a long shot, but I I am hoping (maybe against hope) that it will actually come to pass and that justice will be done. I am just one person and maybe I don’t matter because I am not famous or rich or anything, but my experience is very important to me. it has cost me many things, including the people i thought were members of my family, among other things.

Forced Celibacy?

May 14, 2009

no one is forced to be ordained, but how many young men believe in celibacy before they become priests? Many. Many cultures, like the Latino, Italian and Irish cultures want a son to be a priest. Many are pushed into it. Trust me. I know. You are not forced, but you have stars oin your eyes and maybe you think, if I become a priest, I can change the world or I can help people, whatever. Then, sometimes, they run into a woman or situation that tests their celibacy. We are all human. I am sure you are too. Eugenia Renskoff

Optional Celibacy?

May 13, 2009

No, you are wrong. We do not have optional celibacy. You have to make a vow of celibacy before you are ordained. The vow can be broken if a man/priest falls in love. There is no sin when that happens. Feelings are feelings and repression is harmful. Very harmful. Isn’t the Church all for Love? And shouldn’t that love be human (as in man/woman) and not just spiritual, serving the parishioners kind of love? Both loves are very noble and should be part of a priest’s life if he so chooses. Eugenia Renskoff