Archive for February, 2011

Solace

February 18, 2011

Solace. I seek it in some of my favorite books, like Pride and Prejudice, Mansfield Park and Gone with the Wind. I try to stay positive and not think about the future. The future scares me. Change in my life has been more bad than good. It has brought some progress but it has also taken away crucial people. My way of getting solace is healthy and culture-oriented. I am grateful that I am not turning to drugs or alcohol.

The Street

February 10, 2011

The Street There she is again, with her red cart, and her small cat. There she goes, one more woman, with no roof, no place to eat or cook a meal. There is nowhere to take a shower. The cat wants out of her cage. The cart pusher smiles to herself. The woman wanted out too but this was not the way she pictured leaving the situation she found herself in. No, this is clearly a nightmare. The sun does not shine for her anymore. The days are things, just things with hours and minutes and seconds to try to forget. There she is again, with her red cart, and her small cat. There she goes, one more woman, with no roof, no place to eat or cook a meal. There is nowhere to take a shower. The cat wants out of her cage. The cart pusher smiles to herself. The woman wanted out too but this was not the way she pictured leaving the situation she found herself in. No, this is clearly a nightmare. The sun does not shine for her anymore. The days are things, just things with hours and minutes and seconds to try to forget.

Love of Another Time

February 2, 2011

My Old Love

I felt it in the most sincere way, my love for that priest long ago when I was young. It was a beautiful and scary feeling. It was out there, so much so that even a blind person would have noticed it. I enjoyed it, but was afraid to. Many things about it I didn’t know until then, when I met him. There was no guilt in me about loving a man of God, just the thought that I wanted someone to advice me, to tell me it was ok in spite of the forbidden thing. Now, many years later, I have found out that he has left the priesthood. The news does not surprise me. I think he stopped being a priest some time ago. To me he was and always will be a man.