How did it happen? We were but then we weren’t. I loved you, but I couldn’t always show it. I cared but I pretended I didn’t. I wanted you; my eyes said so, but my words denied it. We spoke. What we said was in codes. Strangers were watching. They were strangers who would go home and gossip. We didn’t want a scandal. Safety was better. Safety had no conflict, no drama. If we told ourselves we didn’t feel what we felt, all would be well. We wasted a lot of time. That time cannot possibly be retrieved. There is no way to get it back. We can remember our dreams. We can remember wishing that the impossible would happen and that somehow we could be together, free to be you and me.
In our hearts, we would be strong and courageous, ready to fight for our love. In the end it was our eyes. Our eyes didn’t lie. They wouldn’t have dared to.