Oh! How I loved you. I loved you so much! I didn’t know what to do with that love. I didn’t know how to hide it or how to behave. Most of the time, I felt like a little girl eating a chocolate ice cream sundae. I didn’t think I deserved it, but I wanted it—I wanted you—just the same. I had to have you near me. I had to be where you were, doing whatever I could to make myself invisible.